Day 122....turned out perfect!

Today ended up being a great day! I was afraid it would be a very LONG day since Landon was up crying last night. John confessed that he was trying to help me out by waking Landon up at midnight and changing his diaper and giving him a bottle. He had good intentions. He thought Landon would be sure to sleep all night if he was changed and fed at midnight. Landon had other ideas. He decided he wanted to stay up and screamed every time I tried to put him in the crib. He didn't even want to lay down with me. He just wanted to be up. I am not sure if his ears were bothering him or if his teeth were bothering him or if he was just being grumpy and wanted me to stay awake with him. But, he finally fell asleep and then he did sleep all night so it all worked out in the end. I am pretty sure John will never do us any favors like that again, though. :o) From now on, we cross our fingers and hope he doesn't soak through his diaper and pray that he sleeps until we are ready to wake him up.

I thought today would be a long day for Landon since he was up last night. I also thought I would be tired out, but it was a great day for all of us. I had some smoothies again today and my water and even some vegetables. I got a few things done around the house and the day seemed to fly by.

After school, we had just enough time to get home, get our homework done, eat supper, and get out the door for soccer. John and Lane went to John's first night of softball for the year. The rest of the kids were with me for soccer. John's sister was with us to help out while I was on the field coaching Briar's soccer game. The weather turned out to be perfect for soccer! I am always so happy when the sun is shining and we can be outside and not freezing!

The kids should all sleep well tonight after all of the running around we did today. Tomorrow should be a great day. We don't have anything going on after school and that is music to my ears!

Day 123....ready for more sunshine!

Day 121....Rain, rain, go away!!

If only I could make the rain stop....things would be so much better. I miss the sunshine. I want to be able to take the kids out for a walk around the cul de sac and not have them freeze. I want to be able to rollerblade with the boys and get some exercise outside! Instead, I had to settle for the elliptical today. It wasn't so bad. I still feel like I get a pretty good workout from the elliptical, but I would rather be outside doing something!

I did have my fruit smoothies today. They are delicious and I always feel great after drinking them. I feel like I can enjoy them without feeling guilty. I also had a bit of cheesy hashbrowns so I suppose that may have counteracted the healthy smoothies just a bit, but I am not going to beat myself up over it.
We had two soccer games on this chilly, windy, dreary, wet evening. Luckily for me, they were both at 5:45pm so we only had to be out in the icky weather for an hour. It really wasn't too bad since I was out and moving around the whole time. I guess the advantage to coaching a soccer team is that you aren't sitting on the sidelines, freezing. You are constantly moving around trying to avoid kids. Those Kindergarteners really don't have any idea where their bodies OR the soccer ball are going to go. It is interesting to say the least. But, I have to admit, I am having more fun than I thought I would. :o)

Tomorrow is another day and I am hoping to make it a great one, no matter what the weather is like. Of course, it always seems to be a better day when the sun is shining so I am hoping for that.

Day 122....high hopes for nice weather.

Day 120....a weekend to rejuvinate.

I took the weekend to rejuvinate myself. I removed the pressure to lose weight for a couple of days. I am not saying I went crazy and ate and drank whatever I wanted, but I didn't weigh myself and I didn't worry every time I put anything in my mouth that I would gain a bunch of weight. It was nice. It felt good to just live and enjoy myself and not worry all the time about how it would affect how I look or how much weight I would gain....or how much weight I would NOT be losing. It is so silly that I put so much pressure on myself to lose weight. Yet, I continue to do just that. Honestly, I know I will not quit putting that pressure on myself until I am at a weight and a look that I am comfortable with. But, I will ease up on myself a bit. I do know that worrying and stressing about how I look will not make things better. And, the more I worry and stress, the more junk I want to eat and the less I feel like working out. So, I am going to try and new approach and not be so hard on myself. Maybe that will motivate me to work harder at achieving my weight loss goals. Maybe with my own support, I will be able to do better....what an interesting concept, huh? We will see how it goes. :o)

This weekend was a great weekend. We only had one soccer game yesterday and church. After church we went to the grocery store and all of the kids were excellent. Grocery shopping is not usually fun, but it is so much more enjoyable when the kids are behaving. After grocery shopping, we came home and had dinner. Once we all had dinner and were all cleaned up and in our jammies we had a family movie night. I love the nights when we all watch a movie together or when we just get to enjoy time together as a family. It makes me realize how lucky we are to have the family we have.

Today was a lazy day as well. We got up and made our usual Sunday morning breakfast consisting of pancakes, bacon, eggs and sausage (no guilt from myself for eating all of that) and, as usual, it was delicious. Then the kids went and played and John and I just relaxed. This afternoon, Lane had to prepare for his first speech in school. Third grade seems pretty early to start speeches but he doesn't seem to be nervous at all. This speech is a pretty easy going one and I think it is great getting the kids used to speaking in front of the class. He has to demonstrate how to make cookie salad. Tonight he made a few batches and put them in dixie cups for the class to enjoy after his speech. Sounds like a pretty yummy assignment to me!

Tomorrow I am going to get back to my healthy eating and working out. I am going to concentrate on filling up on fruits and vegetables and working out as much as possible. I am going to have a positive attitude and realize that I am not going to be perfect but I am giong to do as well as I possibly can.

Day 121....Looking forward to the new me.

Day 118....need to throw my scale.

So, have you ever had that "skinny" feeling, stepped on the scale, then realized it was JUST a feeling? Or, have you ever stepped on the scale and not liked the numbers that showed up so you decided you were wearing your "heavy" sweatpants, then stepped off the scale, took off the sweatpants, then tried weighing again? Or, saw what the scale said, tried going to the bathroom and then weighing again? OR, stepped on the scale, noticed that one or more of your kids was in the vicinity and made them step back or leave the room in fear that they would somehow step on the scale with you or their mere presence would weigh you down more? Ya, neither have I. That would be just plain silly, huh?

I have decided that I really need to stop weighing myself. I know weight isn't everything. I KNOW that the way I feel and the way I look is more relevant than a number on the scale. Yet I weigh myself and I am disappointed if I don't lose weight or if I gain a pound.

Today I decided that I am going to give myself this weekend. I am going to take the weekend to enjoy myself and not obsess about my weight or how I look. I am just going to be happy with myself and everything I am blessed with. On Monday, I am going to try some sort of fruit cleanse. Not really a cleanse. I am just going to have a lot of fruit and veggie smoothies. I am going to fill up on fruits and veggies and not worry about anything else. I am going to work out and I am going to tell myself that I am doing enough. No more negative talk to myself. I am the one who brings myself down by not living up to my own expectations. Starting Monday, that all changes. I am going to be healthy AND happy!
Oh, and I am sure you are wondering so I better not forget to mention that I did get the house cleaned today. It is a miracle! It took me ALL day but I finally got things done and I am so happy!

Day 119....hoping for sunshine!

Day 117....not as planned.

I didn't get as much cleaning done today as I had hoped. It seemed like I tried and tried all day to clean but just didn't get anywhere. Hopefully I am more productive tomorrow. I was able to walk in the cul de sac tonight. I just kept pushing the stroller around and around and around....and around. But, at least I got a nice walk in tonight. John was mowing so the kids just played outside and occasionally took a lap or two around the cul de sac with me.

Earlier today I decided to take a different approach to my weight loss. I am changing my goal weight. Yes, that is correct. I have now increased my goal weight by 15 pounds so I am officially UNDER my goal weight! Isn't that awesome? I feel accomplished. :o)

I am just going to keep eating my fruit smoothies and working out as much as possible and I am hoping to be able to wear a swimsuit (without hiding my face) at some point in time this summer!

Tomorrow is Friday and I can't wait for the weekend! I am hoping to rollerblade sometime this weekend and if it is nice out I am hoping we can go on a nice long walk as a family. That would be perfect.

Day 118....hoping to start off the weekend with a sunny day!

Day 116....Pleasant Surprise!

I got a pleasant surprise when I weighed myself today. I have lost another pound. So, I am now down 8 pounds from when I started the GM diet/cleanse. I wasn't expecting to lose more weight yet but I am not complaining. I did eat pretty healthy yesterday. I had mostly fruit smoothies but I did add 2 homemade buns with butter for dinner so I really thought that if anything, I would have gained a pound or two. Today I stuck with the smoothie thing and I have had another couple of buns with butter just to fill me up. I also had some steamed broccoli. I am not expecting to lose more weight by tomorrow, but I am hoping I don't gain any weight, either. :o)

Today, I did Brazil Butt Lift again. I did the same thing I did on Monday and my butt is S-O-R-E. I do have to admit, it is a good sore. I know I must be doing at least some of the moves right! I am not sure what I will be doing tomorrow but I do know that I have to try and get cleaning my house moved up to the top of my priorities. I just can't keep putting off cleaning forever. Maybe I will do some cardio cleaning and run from room to room as I get things done. Or do some squats between chores. Or, I could just suck it up and get my cleaning done, THEN work out. I guess only time will tell how ambitious I will be.

I love when the sun is out and I hope it is out tomorrow. I just feel better all around when it is sunny outside.

Day 117....Hoping to actually complete my to-do-list.

Day 115....back to normal.

Today was our first normal day after the GM diet. I wasn't quite sure what to expect. On one hand, I was anxious to be able to eat whatever I wanted. On the other hand, I could just see the scale jumping back up to where it was before I started this whole thing. I ended up having a fruit smoothie during the day and two homemade buns with butter on them for dinner. I didn't go crazy, but I did eat more than just fruits and veggies.

Overall, I lost 7 pounds in one week. I was hoping to lose at least 10 pounds but I am not going to complain about 7. I just want to keep going in the right direction with working out and eating right. It is so easy to put on weight but so hard to take it off. I wish it was as easy to lose weight as it is to gain it....I would be skinny minny then!

I did do another workout from Brazil Butt Lift today. Well, I should probably say I mostly watched another workout from Brazil Butt Lift today. I really am not coordinated when it comes to dance-like moves and there are a lot of dance-like moves in the workout I tried to do today. I could get most of the moves when they were doing them individually, but when they added them to a combo they pretty much lost me. I tried to keep up and I will keep trying but I am not sure it will do a whole lot of good.

Tomorrow should be a great day! I plan to work out and get the house cleaned since I didn't get the house cleaned today. I am ready to avoid the junk food and motivated to shed those last several pounds I have to get to my goal weight.

Day 116....hope it is productive!